Nurturing a New Dream

Favourite faces smile at me from the photos on our kitchen cabinets. The pictures from our time in South Africa feel like another life. A year down the line I still pine for that dream, and the person I was in Soshanguve. I miss Aunty Debbie, and her friends big and small. ‘Relinquishing a dream is an act of audacious hope’ a friend told me, and I’m holding onto that. I’m handing over that tiny house in a township dream, and trusting that there is possibility in this new season of family life in the East End of Glasgow.

Our newest family member slept in my arms as we recently listened to a friend preach about dreams, parenting and Joseph. He acknowledged that we’re still ‘living the dream’ when life gets messy. The dream is not only the picturesque beautiful moments: big brother cuddling his sibling, a family dance party. It is also the relentless day in, day out: coaxing a spoonful of porridge, negotiating teeth being brushed, changing another nappy. It was a helpful reminder that being a mum has been a hope of mine for years, that my dream was nestled in my arms.

We built a life in South Africa and I have to remind myself that it happened slowly. From those dusty roads to our snow covered garden, these dreams look so different, but I’ve realised recently that the common thread is relationships. In my life I hope to extend welcome, and to cultivate connection. It is because of my friendships in Soshanguve that I still cry when I talk about that time. And now as I nurture these small lives, I hope that this attachment will form a firm foundation for the boys’ future. I hope too for new connections with our neighbours and community, but I recognise that it is slow work.  I know that our dreams are built moment by moment and day by day. So for now I’ll cuddle my boys, greet my neighbours and pay attention in my community, reminding myself that I’m living the dream.

Simple joys are holy

If you want your dream to be
Take your time, go slowly
Do few things but do them well
Heartfelt work grows purely

If you want to live life free
Take your, time go slowly
Do few things but do them well
Heartfelt work grows purely

Day by day, stone by stone
Build your secret slowly
Day by day, you’ll grow too
You’ll know heaven’s glory

If you want to live life free
Take your time go slowly
If you want your dream to be
Take your time, go slowly

‘Little Church’ (Donovan Leitch)

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